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I get prompts every day at 10am to write in my blog. I’m never sure what to write, so I haven’t been. However, I do want to journal and start being better about putting my feelings and activities into words, so here goes…

I’ve started a health program. This is not something I would normally do, but I’ve gained so much weight in the past 10 years and have not found anything that will help get or keep it off. So, when my friend Danielle started showing signs of weight loss and an amazing increase in confidence and happiness, I asked her about it.

This program is different from anything I’ve ever done. Firstly, it’s done as a group, so I have people that I can talk to online and in person about it. There’s weekly Zoom calls, so I’m always keeping that connection to the “what” and the “why” of it all. It’s been less than a week, and I’ve gone from 229 to 217. That’s pretty amazing. At the same time, I’m skeptical about losing that much weight this quickly.

(Letting people know how much I weigh does not make me embarrassed or uncomfortable. The stigma around keeping these numbers to ourselves, especially as those presenting as female, is ridiculous. While we’re at it, I’m 46.)

I’m not normally an outgoing person. I tend to be way more introvert than extrovert, it’s just that my life experience and jobs have made me good at learning how to push that fear away in order to complete whatever I’ve been asked to do. Even so, I’m doing my best to follow the group’s encouragement of talking about how we’re feeling, to celebrate a win, to FIND a win each week, and to post videos or photos of myself.

This has been a little bit of a struggle, but for the most part it’s been fun. I’m not feeling too terribly hungry all the time, which is definitely new, though I do have cravings for foods that the group has recommended be avoided. I think I can do this. At the least, the weight loss has me very motivated to continue.